For the past days all I did was study. I went through the almighty CCC final with it’s three parts. The 1st & the 3rd were acceptable, but the 2nd was disastrous & “7a8eer”. I got out of the exam room feeling numb, I was supposed to be happy it’s over yet I felt nothing like that. As the hours passed I started feeling tired, frustrated & exhausted. My eyes teared up not because I was sad but because I was tired. The tears socked my eyes for exactly 1 minute then they dried out. I wanted to cry but I couldn’t I just couldn’t.
I treated myself with an outing with my best friend & we started talking about our future plans. I had fun yet there was this nagging feeling inside me that wouldn’t go away. We sat in the restaurant for three hours then went home. It was around 9:30 so I decided to sleep. I played season 5 of SATC on my laptop & started watching. In between the episodes I was bbming a couple of my friends & I said stuff I shouldn’t have said. The next day I woke up at 1 pm & it downed to me that I might be in an emotional breakdown coz my politeness shield was gone last night & I had hurt some of the ppl I love. I woke up wishing that if I started studying surgery I’d feel better.
I set up my papers & books, then called one of my friends, what she said shocked me. She announced that she had called the coarse director and kind of gotten the final exam questions. To me it felt like cheating, pure cheating and I don’t like that. I have failed many exams during my college life because I’d rather fail than cheat. Those are my standards. Yet I found that almost everyone were okay with it & considered it a good thing. To me it’s taking the easy way out & being lazy. And I also see it that in the future you the cheater may kill a person & try to go around the system to save you ass since your standards are okay to take something you haven’t earned.
My closest friend say I’m over-reacting and I should let it go, I may be over-reacting but I can’t just sit & watch. This subject irritates me the most, and although I’m not a perfect person. What’s right is right & what’s wrong is wrong & they’re both as clear as the sun.
Never abandon your standers … It speaks you .. and life is about morals and who can stands the chaos of bad choices which consider as good ones nowadays. And taking it as ” al 3′aya tobarir al wasela ” which am against the most as I see you are… It’s a loser saying and people love the easy ways to get a lot but the end is obvious ! Life is like a boomerang everything u have done it’ll return back in your hand ! I love how courageous you are in a life that its people have changed !
God bless … Wish u all the best in your life <3 Saja(Quote)
Thank you sweetie *hugs* and god bless u too <3 iFarah(Quote)
Wow, Farah! I can completely relate. The girls in my class always take the questions that are coming in the exam from the class that already took the test. It hurt at first, because I used to study really hard and then they’d basically memorize the test, and get a higher grade. It makes me question people’s morals generally. It’s also unfair. I must say, I got involved once, to compare my grades – the one I deserved, and the “not so honest grade”. I still regret it, to this day. No one really understands why, though.
Keep at it, and study – getting an A+ on your own tastes much sweeter than getting it because you stole it.
That includes in class cheating – I have never cheated during the test it self, but I know for a fact that people cheat from me. All I can say is, I know they’re the ones that are losing (“hum el5sraneen”), I’m not going to be around forever – independence is better earlier off in life!
xx Hala(Quote)
Good post. I like your courage and way of thinking. Never give in to people who always try to take the easy way out. It may look fun for a while but in the end you will be the loser. Trust me, I’ve seen it with my own eyes. Keep at it, study hard, pray more InshAllah you will succeed :) Amjad(Quote)
Hala : I’m glad we’re on the same page, not many people think this way lil asaf.
Amjad: Thank you, I really appreciate it :) iFarah(Quote)
I couldn’t agree more. When such thing happened to me I was so shocked that i didn’t even talk!!
right now i know that if it happened again -and it will- my reaction will be a slap on the face.
no matter what’s the specialty u’re studying this should never be a strategy when u’re lacking time..
i love this post and know that Allah will reward u for rather failing than cheating Fadiosis™(Quote)
Thank you dear & good luck.. hopefully it won’t happen to u soon. iFarah(Quote)