I was supposed to write this post last night yet yesterday was a bit of a busy day. I woke up at 10 am and jumped around my room to get ready as fast as I could since I was late to the revision class they scheduled for u that started AT 10 am. I got to class, attended whatever was left of it till 1 pm. I set off to my clinic, I had my two last appointments as a dentist/student. I was worried and anxious, the lab had gotten me the dentures but I had no idea if they’d fit or not.. And I couldn’t afford them not fitting! My 1st patient arrived and alhamdillah the denture fit perfectly. I called my supervisor to check on it & sign my requirement’s sheet. I was smiling yet still the 2nd patient wasn’t done yet. I waited and waited. Her appointment was at 2.. But she showed up at 3 ! I didn’t comment on her lack of punctuality since it was her last appointment. I tried in the denture & it needed a bit of alteration then fit perfectly too alhamdillah. I called the other supervisor to check on & he approved. He took out his stamp from his pocket, stamped his name on my papers and signed the last signature I needed to complete my case. I felt a mixture of relief & extreme happiness. I wanted to scream & cry. Yet I didn’t just to keep my posture in front of both the doctor & the patient. I gave her the instructions needed & told her this is her last visit. She was so happy & thanked me.
After she left I stood there in my clinic, cleaning up for the last time thinking.. This is it. I’m done. It’s over. No more running around, no more frustration, no more patient hunting, no more misery, no more.. No more ! 6th year is officially over. I was and still am at this moment in a state of disbelief, I had crossed the bridge, walked the journey & made it till the end. I had my doubts, oh how big & strong they were, doubts deep in my heart that I may not have the strength nor the will to do this. But I did it, I really truly did it !
I got home at around 4 pm ate my lunch then went to my papers. I sat there trying to read but couldn’t.. I felt so tired, like a heavy weight was lifted off my shoulders. I decided to give myself the rest it needed, the rest it earned. I took a nap which sadly extended till 9 pm. I woke up in shock & started working on the forms & my patient pictures to print them out & hand them in the next day. It took me 2 hours to finish them all. Then I went back to studying.. I slept around 3 am since I had to wake up today to beat the 9 am deadline.
I woke up, went to the university & handed in every single paper I had to sign & stamp throughout the year. I walked back to the car empty handed with a full heart. I still can’t believe this is all happening, I still can’t comprehend it all and I still haven’t cried of joy !
Finals are just 5 days away so maybe after I’m really done with CCC I shall feel what I’m supposed to feel.
Now back to my never-ending papers which I have a feeling are populating overnight when I’m asleep !